Testimonies from the Staff Ashley Reyes

MY TESTIMONY

Broken

It’s the word we use to describe what is shattered

Lost

&

Hopeless

Is what you get when You grow up ignorant Of a life worth living 

Because everything around you is

Godless

Just religion, Catholicism

No understanding or knowledge of

The Gospel  Repentance

Jesus

Was just another name Never even hearing the term

Born Again

This is your life they said Take the wheel and lead

Problem is my steering led me

To a road full of

Nothing No peace No love

Trying to be perfect But always coming up short

Empty

Void of any true meaning

To the reason I was breathing

Just a little girl but my life

Was already spiraling

Deep

Deep

Deep

Down into darkness

Where demons plagued my mind With screams in the night

And led my hands to wound my body

While the sun was still out

Rejected

Outcast

So I pushed them away 
No one can hurt me If they never get to know me

Was my philosophy

But my logic only hid me away

So deep into myself

That my imagination became

My reality

Some people turn to drugs To alcohol To relationships

To ease the heartbreak

But I turned to fantasies

And let me tell you

Media is not the only form of

Pornography

Filthy

Ashamed

But I couldn’t stay away

From my only form of comfort

And escape from the pain

Good girl?

FAR FROM IT

My innocence was a reputation

Only built by my silence

But inside, I was so unclean

Full of

Hatred Envy

And everything unclean

All the while, never knowing

There was a God who loved me

So much that He would die for me

While I was unworthy

At thirteen

I took my first steps into a place called

Church

But a whole year went by

Before I finally gave up the dirt

What was I afraid of?
Afraid of the unknown
And letting go of the sins that Held me so close

One day

At the age of fourteen Behind my bedroom door

I bowed my knee

Crying out to the Most High

“Please forgive me”

“I’m sorry”

“Save me”

Immediately

The darkness that always consumed me

Became what I used to be

Broken

The chains were

Broken

I am free

With the light of Christ in me

Never have I turned back

Never will I turn back

I am a child of God

Redeemed

By the blood on Calvary

Shed by my Savior

Prince of Peace

Jesus

Call on this name

And you’ll never Be the same